today is the last day i will spend in this apartment. i am spending it alone, which means that the final cleanup and locking up falls on me; it also means that there is no one to pester me, no one to get in my way, no one to hear yelling through the wall. i helped chris move out this morning before i had to ditch him to take my last exam before break.

this has been a stressful semester, but not as stressful as the last although it should have been. none of it before spring break feels real, and everything after feels surreal. my grades have tanked as my mental health has plateaued in this nebulous vein of not-caring-so-much-it-hurts

apologies for the slug. i'm really not sure what i'm doing right now.